roman12's Journal

Last Time
Well, this is gonna be my last livejournal entry. I've moved to Xanga and have a blog there. www.xanga.com/J_Dubya119. Thanks to Livejournal for 5 awesome months. Peace.

Current Music: "Freak On A Leash" by KoRn

Spring Break! First official day and it was great. Slept in until noon, had some food, went out, deposited my check, went to Walgreen's to find my mom a B-Day card, and stopped at Suburban (Video) to pick up some rentals. Got Napolean Dynamite, Robin Williams: Live on Broadway, Super Troopers (finally gonna see it), and School of Rock. Gonna be an awesome next couple of days. Just me and my DVD player. I've had Laurie's suicide on my mind all day. Just a lot of confusion about it right now. I think everybody who knew enough about her feels the same way. I had a jolt to start writing a song earlier tonight so I came down to the computer, picked up my guitar, and started. I really want to honor the way she lived her life even though I didn't know her personally. God granted me enough creativity to pull out the chord progression, 1st verse, 1/2 the chorus, and the title which started out as "Laurie's Song" but then got trimmed down to simply "Laurie". I really want this song to be as good as possible. She is definately worth remembering. Please continue to pray for the Boncimino family.

Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Lifehouse "No Name Face"

Meh
Nothin' special about today. Woke up at 1 pm (sweet), had some cereal, and vaccumed for mom while she took a break and enjoyed the awesome weather. Went to work at 5 and left at about 8:15. Not a bad night's wages. Waiting for a time when I can go over to grandma's and get an updated photo of myself so I can start on my Xanga site. I just feel so outta the mix not having one. I still have to think of a name too.

Current Mood: geeky
Current Music: "Who Made Who" by AC/DC

Life is confusing
Greetings everyone,
I just recieved word that Laurie Boncimino's body was found in Lake Michigan at around 11:29 this morning. A 5 page suicide note written in her handwriting was found in her jeep along with her personal belongings. There appeared to be no evidence of foul play although I still hold my doubts that it was a suicide. Laurie had her whole life in front of her. She was beautiful, engaged to be married, and had a huge heart for missions. I guess if this was indeed a murder God will deal with the person or persons responsible in his own divine way. How confusing life can be. We hear these things on the news all the time but still never believe that it could happen so close to home. Although I did not know Laurie personally I saw a fire in her whenever she would speek about her many missions trips and good deeds at Student Impact. For those of you who have prayed, please do not stop. Remember Laurie's family as they are indeed being stabbed by the dagger of pain and loss. God bless you all.

Current Mood: slate
Current Music: "Ballad of Jayne" by LA Guns (a song of pain in loss)

Not much to say for today. Going way better than yesterday. I know that much. My back was killing me all night. It hurt to even move. I figured out this morning that I have a charlie horse pressing right up against my spine. That explains the pain. Doin' laundry and off to work at 5. Not much else.

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: "Sick Love Song" by Motley Crue

Today has been shit, all shit, and nothing but shit. I woke up at 7:50 so I was 10 minutes late to my first class. I got nothing done in algebra. They roped off the balcony in the chapel so I had to sit on the main level and feel crampped. I bombed my Missions midterm. I came home and found out that Laurie Boncimino has been missing for 2 days. There has been little trace of any good things in this day so far other than I'm finally on spring break, but I'm sure that my mom will find some way to keep me from relaxing. She always does. I'm going into break worried about Laurie. Even though I didn't know her personally I know that she was a key player at Impact. This is not how I want to spend my fucking break. I'm worried and pissed off. God sees all of this coming but does he do anything to cut me a break? NO! He just likes to sit back and see me struggle. I know he cares, but that doesn't mean I'm anywhere near understanding him. You'd think he'd cut me some slack. Oh well. I guess I'll have to make the best of break even though it's already been fucked up.

Current Mood: words cannot describe
Current Music: "Freak On A Leash" by KoRn

Crazy but calm day today. Woke up 5 minutes before I had to be out the door. Got downstairs and saw that my car was caked with snow. Wasn't happy about that. Made it to class in enough time though. Chapel today was pretty dull. The principal of St. Edward's High School in Elgin came and spoke. I thought it would be kinda cool hearing from an actual Catholic father. No. Harper and I spent most of the time counting the people we saw sleeping. It came out to about 30. Got home and managed to knock out my journal on Mark so I'm happy about that. Just have Luke and Romans left to do by Thursday but time's still gonna be tight. Work was OK. 800 piecer but we knocked it out by 9:30. Bobby bought us 2 XL pizzas! Yes, Bobby! The kid may be nuts but he's showin' an awesome side of himself. Meeting up with Alan and Jason tomorrow at noon to do our interperative assignment. Peace.

Current Mood: meh
Current Music: some jazz song

*sigh*
Today's been weird. Work wasn't too bad. We got done at 7:45. But, for some strange reason I don't feel like myself. I feel angry for no reason. Even though work went well I'm kinda pissed off. I dunno what the hell's going on. Maybe it's from all the stress I've been under that's more or less my fault because of my procrastination. I've been feeling alone a lot lately too. I'm so sick of feeling alone. I know God's here with me, but that should be enough. So why doesn't it feel like it? I just wish I wasn't so pathetic, being all "I wish I had a girlfriend." All that does is make me more depressed 'cause I know that I'm not exactly a ladies' man and I'm really no good at the whole dating thing. Hell, I haven't even gotten my first kiss yet and I'm 19 for crying out loud. I guess I'm just paying for not being a go-getter in the past. Maybe if I had actually tried I wouldn't feel the way I do right now. Oh well. I can't repeat the past even though a lot of the time I so wish I could. To the victor go the spoils. I just wish that victor was me.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: "Hero" by Foo Fighters

It's Saturday-ee-eh-ee-eh
Not a bad day. Got home at 2:15 this morning from Frank's play/Lynn's house. Frank's play was great. He was amazing as Mr. Brownlow. Riggs showed up at Lynn's so it was awesome to see him again. Drewy was back in from Chile again so I got to see him too. I was like "SWEET!" I finally got to see Napolean Dynamite and I laughed my ass off. We spent the rest of the night swaping camp stories and laughing histarically. Poor Natalie didn't know what we were talking about since they were all stories from '03. We made sure she was filled in on the details though. lol. Slept 'til 11:00, had some grub, and got to work on my paper. Had 3.5 pages left, now only 1. Woo hoo! Gimme a case of Boo Ya! Mike called me up and said he was shorthanded tonight so I agreed to come in for a few hours. Went in at 5 and left at 7:30. Went over to Meijer and bought the Blue Collar Comedy Tour Rides Again soundtrack and Slipknot's new disc. Good stuff. Workin' 3-8 at Kohl's tomorrow. Please God, let it be mostly hardlines. Please please please PLEASE!

Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: Blue Collar Comedy Tour Rides Again soundtrack

Got Stress?
Today was OK for the most part. Typical Thursday. We actually got the truck done by 9:30 tonight. There was food in the breakroom so Ray, Larry, and myself satyed behind until 10 just to get back what Uncle Sam's gonna steal from us (aka our money. F-in' taxes.) 4 trucks total next week. Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. Plus I have midterms next week. Freakin' A dude! Well, as long as I can get most of my New Testament portfolio done I'll be cool. Goin' to Frank's play tomorrow. I'm so excited to see everybody again. Can't wait. I love camp get-togethers. Peace out.

Current Mood: both uphill and downhill
Current Music: "Fuel" by Metallica

Pretty good day today. We started watching Farenheit 9/11 in english class since the whole class is based on arguments. I will admit, except for the truth about Gore being screwed out of the presidency in 2000, the film isn't as good as I thought it was the first time I saw it. I still hate the damn war though. Protecting freedom my ass. Anyway, politics aside *votedemocrat* lol chapel was a Taize (pronounced Tie-Zay) service. The whole week's services are on the Catholic church. Not the Roman Catholic church. Catholic as in THE church. Differences aside ya know. We had some gals in M&E from Wisconsin, all high school juniors so they got a taste of the crazy atmosphere in that class. I managed to knock out another page of my paper so now I'm 1/2 done. It's not as hard as I thought it would be. Mom and I finally made it to Aldi and spent $50 on desperately needed food. I'm so sick of toast. lol. But now we have real food! I'm gonna go savor it. Peace.

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: "Fade" by Staind

Meh
Usual day today. Got up around 11:00, had some breakfast, watched Unsolved Mysteries, and hit the road. Both classes went unusually quick. Came home, had a couple of hot dogs, and went to work. 840 pieces tonight and about 40% hardline. Thank God. Got early classes tomorrow so me need sleep. Good night.

Current Mood: dorky
Current Music: "Buddy Holly" by Weezer

One More Day In The Life Of...
Today was a typical Monday. I still had to go to class even though it was President's Day but I've gotten used to not having all the little holidays off. Back to routine with my 8:00 start this morning. oy. I don't know what's up with my Missions class but l8ly we've just all been laugh-happy. So it's made for some good times. Came home and decided not to go to Aldi even though I'm totally out of food. Gonna spend some time with dad tonight since he's been in Germany the past week. Plus I'm not working tonight so it's gonna be ultra sweet to catch up on wrestling. I hate it when I don't know what's going down. I just wanna know when Triple H is finally gonna cough up that belt. Plannin' on some chicken tenders tonight with some German honey that dad brought home. mmmm mmmm. Peace out.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: "Man In The Box" by Alice In Chains

Sunday Bloody Sunday
Not too much today. Got out of bed at about 11:30, had some french (oops, I mean "freedom" toast. lol), and lazed around until I had to leave for work. Work was pretty tough, but pretty easy at the same time. One of the EMR guys, Bill, helped us out today. At the end he told us that he has a new respect for what we do. Always nice to hear from EMR people. I was happy to find out that Bush decided not to invade Iran. For once I applaud him. Found out that Rachel isn't coming back up to camp this year. Totally sucks the big one. Even though we were in somewhat of competition last summer I really did enjoy her company and hearing her ideas about faith and stuff. So yeah, that really sucks. Dad made it home OK and crashed as soon as I got home. He brought some chocolate with booze in it so I tried a piece. Man, I'm never gonna be an alcoholic that's for sure. I guess that's a good thing. That's it for now. Peace.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: "Two Steps Behind" by Def Leppard

yawn
Definately nothin' goin' down today. Woke up at 11:45 and watched Fairly Oddparents all afternoon. Went out to the mall later and bought Mitch Heberg's CD. It came with a DVD so for $20 it was a pretty sweet deal. Told you my day was uninteresting.

Current Mood: Meh
Current Music: "Like A Stone" by Audioslave

Why!?
Life. A mix of highs, lows, and extreme lows. I took my car in this afternoon for the alignment it badly needs. But, of course, I found out that i have a bent ball joint, a bent knuckle, a cracked rim, and all 4 of my tires are almost totally shot to hell. So in 20 minutes a $75 job turned into what will be an $1100 job. This means that I can't go up to see Kelly's play tomorrow. Needless to say I'm pissed off. This is all because of that stupid curb I hit back in November. I should sue the city of Elgin. Maybe if they actually salted the main roads when it gets icy this crap would've never happened 'cause that's exactly why I hit that curb. I'm in real need of prayer right now. So if ya'll could pray that we can find the money somehow I'll love you for the rest of my life. My family's not exactly in the best financial situation right now (thanks a lot Republicans) so it's gonna be really hard for us to come by that much money. The problem is that these repairs can't be put off. So now I can only drive when I absolutely have to. On the lighter side of life, praise and worship chapel went really well this morning. The index and middle fingers on my right hand hate me right now because of all the work I've put them through the past 2 days. It was worth it though. I've never had that much fun in chapel before. I had my foot up on the amp and during the last song, "You Are Good," I had my head flying all around, I was jumpin' and it was just a grand ol' time. My meeting with professor Wilson went really well too. So right now my happiness level is at about 50/50. A very bad day, yet a very good day.

Current Mood: exanimate
Current Music: "Machinehead" by Bush

One Day Remains
Hey all. Today was nothin' super special. I had a real hard time getting out of bed this morning and was a couple minutes late out the door. I still made it in plenty of time though. Sam stayed in algebra after her 8:00 class got out so it was nice to talk to her and kind of get to know her better. We're on the same worship team so I feel like I really need to get a jump on getting to know my fellow rockers. Chapel today was about the difference between exposing and exploiting sin in the media. Really fasinating seeing as how I've never thought about it. Came home and knocked out the last of what needs to be done of my paper for Friday. Now all I have to do is find 2 or 3 more sources and I should be gravy. Went to work at 5:00. The truck was 800-some pieces and you guessed it, it was almost all hang and fold again but this time we had a good amount of hardlines too. We finished up at 10:00 on the dot. Came home, checked my Emails, and talked to Shelly for a while (IM) so that was nice after a long night. Tomorrow the truck is supposed to be 1300 pieces but mostly hardline, so we'll see. Shalom.

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: "Encore" by Linkin Park and Jay-Z

Yet Another Simple Day
Greetings again ya'll. Today was actually pretty kick ass. Since I don't have English class all week I get an extra hour of sleep which by the end of the week will total 3 extra hours. I think that's pretty good. I'm finally ready for the first exam in Algebra. Thank God it's gonna be scantron and it's only 25 questions. The speaker in chapel today was an Egyptian minister to Muslims in the middle east. Hearing his story really did my heart good. He also spoke in Missions & Evangelism afterward so it was really nice to hear him in a much smaller atmosphere. He was an amazingly funny and overall a really nice guy. Stopped by the bank after class to make some deposits into my checking acount, seeing as that it was almost drained. I came home, reheated some pizza from last night, and got to work on my english paper. I was only aiming for 1/2 a page but I managed to knock out a full one. This means that I only have at least one more page to type by Friday morning. So freakin' happy. I have work for the next 4 nights which is probably gonna be hell. I heard that all of the trucks this week are gonna be over 850 pieces so I'm not too thrilled about that, but oh well, money in the bank. Workin' with Bobby tonight so at least we'll have some entertainment. Peace out crazies.

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: "Aces High" by Iron Maiden

Another Day, Another Box Of Stolen Pens
Pretty good day. My dad made to to Germany safely (Thank You Lord) and called around 9:00 this morning (about 4:00pm their time). After he called I fell back asleep for another 4 hours and finally rolled out of bed at around 1:00. I worked on my history paper all afternoon and finally finished it. That just leaves some New Testament work and another 2.5 pages of my english paper to do. Talk about relaxed now. I don't even have to have those pages done until Friday morning and I only have a couple more Ne Testament questions to go. I'm so happy right now I could just plotz. Orderin' out for pizza tonight with mom. We decided to do a 1/2 and 1/2. She gets her green pepper and onion and I get my green olive. It's gonna be a good night Tater. Until next time, take care of yourselves and each other.

Current Mood: relieved
Current Music: "Just Like You" by Three Days Grace

One Whole Week
Laid around all day watching Speed 2 and Wayne's World. Dad left this afternoon for Germany. He's going with the video team from Willow. He won't be back until next Sunday afternoon. Shore am gonna miss 'im.

Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: "Carrie" by Europe

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